New yet old pics

I put up some new pictures but they are from the last year, so in a way they are old. I always love to look over old pictures it really helps remind me of the good year or good times we had. I tend to forget going through the regular daily routines all the good times we have. Anyway the pics are just a few of the good times, and I always look forward to the ones to come.

The doctor called back yesterday and said that the test results were normal this time. I am so relieved and thankful to hear that! Now I feel like the only difficult part I need to get through is doing it all alone, but to me that is much easier than thinking of doing it alone and the baby having a disability or birth defect. I know I can get through it alone, but it would break my heart if something was wrong with the baby. Ok well we need to get ready to go to family day for Jose's Battalion on post. Fun fun!!

Our time at home for Christmas.

We were home in Pennsylvania for Christmas this year. We had not been home in over a year, the longest we've been away. We all enjoyed our time there, even though it was very busy. We went into the city of Philadelphia a couple of times, those were the best times. We went to the museum of natural science, Autumn likes that one because of the Dinosaurs it has. We went to the Big Macy's store to see the light show, it was a beautiful store, I think it is over a hundred years old. We ate lunch at the Hard Rock Cafe and walked so much, my feet were killing me! The next time we went down there we went to the mutter museum. It is a museum that is dedicated to the oddities of the medical world. It has centuries worth of weird medical stories and the real specimens that go along with them. From skulls to body parts lots of fetus's that never made it or huge growths from the intestines. It is pretty neat and odd. Autumn thought it was gross! After that we found this really neat Cafe, it was called the continental cafe. I wish I had my camera with me there it was so retro with the coolest furniture and those big wicker swings that are for one person per chair. They were only at the tables for two people. I loved the food, it was very organic and funky. I had a huge turkey burger with Portabella mushrooms and this yummy red pepper coulis (a creamy sauce). The guys did not dig it but us girls did! Autumn had her birthday party at my moms with all our family there, she enjoyed it. It was great to be home but nice to be back in our own house.

Blood Test

So when I had my last doctor appointment the doctor had told me that it was time for me to have a blood test to check the protein levels in my blood. I thought nothing of it and had the blood taken. A couple of days later I got a call from the doctors office and the woman told me that the test had come back abnormal and the doctor wanted to talk to me. I said ok and that I would come in. I asked the lady what the test checked for and she said down syndrome and Spina Bifida. I was a little shocked and scared. When I told Jose I could not stop from breaking down. I was such a mess and so scared about what it all could mean. He came home to go with me to the doctors, and I pretty much cried till we went. I know I should not have gotten so worked up with out hearing what the doctor had to say but all I could think of was what if the baby had one of those problems, how that would be, how scary it would be. We went to the doctors and she said that the test showed we had an increased risk of having a baby with down syndrome based on the low protein levels in my blood. But she did not have the ultrasound results yet, so she did not know for sure how far along I was. When it came back saying I was 3 weeks less she said the test was taken too soon and re drew my blood. I am still waiting for the results, but I feel a lot better about it all. I don't think I have ever felt so worried before.

Jose leaving :(

I still can't believe that Jose will be leaving again for Iraq so soon. I try not to think about it but it is becoming very real to me and hard to avoid anymore. I know this is going to be the hardest deployment yet, and I hate that the kids have to go with out their dad for so long. Poor Autumn has had to do this twice already and it doesn't get any easier for her. I think I worry so much because I will be having another baby, I don't know how I will manage three on my own two being under 2. I will be doing a lot of praying that is for sure! It's weird to think that once this deployment is done Jose and I will have spent over 3 years apart, that is more than a quarter of our marriage! I hope there is an end in sight soon. I will have to take each day at a time and try not to get overwhelmed. I know it will be ok in the end, it is just so hard to see that from this point.

Yeah Eagles!! I was so happy they won the game today. I hope they beat Arizona next week, I am thinking it might be a Pennsylvania Super Bowl. Well my ultra sound apt. went well. I am however less in weeks then the doc thought. It looks like I am only 16 weeks instead of 19 weeks, so it was not 100% what the babies sex was.....................but the ultrasound tech said it looks to him like it would be a girl!! I know it is going to be a girl I knew Jadon would be a boy and I just feel this one will be a girl. That is what me and Autumn are rooting for, Jose not so much. :( Autumn gets to be the Star student of the week so we have to take pics in of her life per say so people can get to know more about her, she is excited. Dinner was yummy tonight, of course the kids didn't want it though. We had sausage and cheese stuffed shells with yummy garlic green beans and garlic bread. Jose and I liked it, I guess you cant win them all. Well need to get the kids a bath. Bye :)