I still can't believe that Jose will be leaving again for Iraq so soon. I try not to think about it but it is becoming very real to me and hard to avoid anymore. I know this is going to be the hardest deployment yet, and I hate that the kids have to go with out their dad for so long. Poor Autumn has had to do this twice already and it doesn't get any easier for her. I think I worry so much because I will be having another baby, I don't know how I will manage three on my own two being under 2. I will be doing a lot of praying that is for sure! It's weird to think that once this deployment is done Jose and I will have spent over 3 years apart, that is more than a quarter of our marriage! I hope there is an end in sight soon. I will have to take each day at a time and try not to get overwhelmed. I know it will be ok in the end, it is just so hard to see that from this point.
- ▼ 2009 (26)